She sleeps while holding her bear everynight
started off holding a blanket that was given to her by her mother at the tender age of 5
That blanket is gone, her brother took scissors and made little people out of it
he woke up the next morning bald, and till this day he would ask her who did it but she doesn't know
maybe she will remember when she gets her blanket back
The nights would be to dark so she runs into her mothers room and holds on to her while taking in the vanilla scent on her clothing and sheets
She would hold onto a bible when her mom would go to the hospital, waiting in the dinning room for her mother to walk through the door as she looks at the picture of "the last supper" hung above the table.
She would hold on to her faith when her mother went into a coma laying on the hospital bed with tubes coming out of her throat and mouth, a machine was her life line
She held on to her mothers hands when she opened her eyes for the last time after six months in a coma, she smiled and little does she know that her mother just told her goodbye
She couldn't hold on to her tears when the call came at 2 in the morning that her mother died, it was raining that night so she believed that god was crying to.
She couldnt hold herself up so she dropped to her knees screaming "no"
She held on to a picture of her mother and saw a completely different woman in the casket.
She held on to her heart as she watched her mother go down 6 feet deep into the ground in a cemetery in queens, surrounded by strangers that she will soon play dominoes with and make fun of the stupid yet adorable things their kids did.
Thinking of the vanilla scent on her clothes and sheets, she sleeps while holding onto a bear everynight.